Friday, September 18, 2009

dementor's kiss

okay, marianne. what did i tell you? here i am feeling like the worst wife on the planet, the worst mom, the worst housekeeper, daughter, friend, cook,,yada, yada, yada. i know i should read my scriptures but i can't summon up enough wherewithal to open them. plus, i know if i read anything, i will immediately feel guilty about everything. sometimes, life just sucks and you just have to get through it. i have a sign on my kitchen counter that says, "hang in there! you're a trooper!" i am so sick of being a frickin' trooper! i am sick of hanging in there. of course, i can't actually say any of this to anyone--because i am a trooper! maybe if i just go eat some chocolate...

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  1. OK, take a deep breath. Here's what you do. Kiss your awesome husband, tell him you love him and you appreciate what he's about to do. Then you either buy a plane ticket (I'll help you pay for it) or hop in the car and come to me. Come to me and live in my chaos for a while...it will be a nice break from the usual chaos!! We'll go to Oktoberfest, and Brick Oven, and Olive Garden, and Leslie's, and we'll hit the outlets in Park City if you want to. Your family will be OK without you for four or five days!! (I know this because I've come to you several times and everyone survives/thrives while I'm gone!!) Think about it, at least...

    Meanwhile, hang on. You're an awesome wife and an awesome mom and the best little sister!! Perhaps you haven't managed to do before 9 am what it takes me three days to think about starting to do, but give yourself a break, for goodness sake!! Like I said, take a deep breath, have a good cry if you need to, eat some chocolate (popcorn works, too), and pull out your Patronus!!

    XOXOXOXO!!!!

    (Seriously, come to me, you can sleep in Paul's room. It's totally clean!!)

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  2. It makes me sad that you feel this way, that we ALL do at some point. Who is this super women we think we aught to be?
    I think we see the best quality in every woman and think we need to be that great in every area. I have never met that person. The super clean freak can't let down and chill, the hot body who can't have a party cos of all the nasty yummy food there, the Super Mom who looks like heck and won't hang out with her husband. Just today, make a list of all you do then at the end of the day decide weather you served yourself, your husband, your kids your employer etc. you'll be surprised just what you do :) Oh and if there's a party at M's I want to come, as long as don't have to perform an armpit song or pee in the bushes :)

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  3. thanks, ladies! i took a little time for myself, a long nap and made sure I got back to my exercise routine and I am starting to feel better. I would love to come see you Marianne, but are you kidding? :) Right now it would take way more work than I can handle just to get there! I will keep it in mind. Maybe we can have a "trooper's" retreat every year! :)

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